LOL with Love

My dearest Love,

How God works in magical ways is beyond comprehension. As this is the last day I will see you and be with you, He made us share a really really hearty laugh. We were just both giggling, you were cute and you simply let loose and enjoyed the blooper I discovered. I wanted to hug you, capture every second of that moment. It kinda broke the ice between us. You found it funny as well, despite your formal and professional demeanor, you just laughed out truly too.

"Calm down, Michelle." 
"It's the first time I see you shaking from laughing. You were all red."

And for the first time in forever, you shared your own funny mishap in ordering complex Xrays to a 95 year-old weak patient. You looked like  a young boy. Man, you can laugh and you have  sense of humor. 

The best thing at that minute- you were actually talking to me and it's just the two of us. Thank you for understanding my insanity. Thank you as much for making it easy for me during the rounds as I was all over the place. Putting on patients,assessing them and passing meds. Answering phone calls and staff inquiry.

Thank you my love. You even agreed to write on my behalf your orders and G, you got clean and clear penmanship. Thank you for not giving me the attitude of a diva. Maybe you saw how I was truly swamped with tasks.I wanted to give you my full attention but I can't. 

Love, I won't see you for a couple of months. I hope the next time we bump into each other, the both of us are happy and settled with partners who love us and care for us. I continue to wish, hope and pray for THE One, it is not you at this moment obviously. Somewhere somehow, he will come. And I wish the same thing for you.

I care for you. I pray that you may always find reasons to laugh out loud every now and then.

Goodbye, my love. Thank You God for giving me this gift of memory with him.

Laugh. Love.Live.

GOODBYES ARE GOOD

I am not saying goodbye to love and to you my Love. I simply want to live each day without a trace of bitterness.Love does not demand, it has to be given with both hands unclasped, with a heart willing to be alive amidst the possibility of aches, trials and rejections.

I humbly accept the reality it may not still be THE time right now.And he may not even be THE one yet. I continue to wish, pray with deep faith that God has His perfect plans for me sketched and sealed in a blueprint. 

Until then, I shall savor my solitude and value the people who love me.
Glad I am not lonely, although it would not hurt to have a hand to hold me when I am very stressed at work , to get a tight hug when I suddenly miss my past life with Mamang in Philippines. Or to have someone to watch Bucks vs Lakers live at Staples Center, with Lakers winning the game.

Love. Pray. Hope.

Surprised!!

My dearest Love,

On Tuesday, while doing the headcount for the clinic Holiday party, families and "plus ones" included, I mentioned it's ME alone. John may bring Justin. Then Princess casually uttered "Why Michelle? Won't you bring your boyfriend with you?"

People in the room including me answered in unison "Who???" And she mentioned your name with conviction. Huhhhh????!!!!!

In a rare circumstance, I was dumbfounded. After like 45 seconds I finally responded, " I don't know how to answer to that."

What made her say that? What do they see? Now I have to be more cautious and controlled when you are around, does my non-verbal language give me away? I don't wanna assume, I am attuned in the real world, shutting the fantasy temptations. You don't do and say anything so I conclude there is NOTHING.

On a lighter note, I find it funny as I am unaware that I have a boyfriend. What is more insane, my "boyfriend" is totally clueless and doesn't even pursue me an inch!!!

Love. Wish. Pray.

Heart Beats Fast

My dearest Love,

I can't think straight when you are around, I try so much to pretend you don't exist to the point I ignore you. It makes me sad to see how warm you are to others, chat with them effortlessly while you barely say  one full sentence to me.

You were my birthday wish, I prayed to God and He knows it came from my heart as I can't keep anything away from HIM right? Stars and angels pitied on me and my friend HG, they let me hear your voice as you greeted me. I was shaking and felt the world stop at that moment. I got lost and you got me.

My Love, with your brilliance I know it is plain obvious that I like you and yes how I wish you can reciprocate how I feel for you. But that's not the way how love works. Love can't demand, it must be freely given. My prayer is for God to let you allow me to love you and care for you because I have the huge capacity to love. I even ask Mamang to please knock at your heart so I may come in.

You are Bucks, I am Lakers. I dream that we watch NBA together and I long for the day that I witness your moves in playing my most favored sports. You once said "I'm rough in basketball."I will be your cheerleader on the bleacher.

I care very much for you. It makes me very happy when you try and savor the food I cook and prepare. Your Raquel says we make a good couple. I concur, do you?? I fancy you for who you are, your genuine interest in our patients, your passion in your profession impress me.

At the mass on my 42nd birthday, the responsorial psalm was ,"Lord, when your GLORY appears, my joy is FULL!" My Love, allow me to love you, care for you. I am certain I will be more than just happy, my heart will be joyful.

Love. Love. Love.

A Day of Fun at Disneyland

As I have SoCal Select Annual Passport for the Disney theme parks, on a rare day off from work, I went to Disneyland to see and feel the Halloween vibe. This season is big in this country.

Why does it have to be a hot day on my day out???

I like going here alone( like most other activities, sigh), I am not time- pressured, I take things slow, at times I just do people-watching and wonder the magic of this place, like why it is so full of people at any given day. On this visit, I planned to see new attractions, rediscover old favorites and just stroll around to randomly select whatever may catch my eye.

Perks of an annual passport holder is you can go to the two parks at any given time for a non-blockout date. I first went to Grand California Adventure, hoping to catch Frozen the play. Timing wasn't right so I went to the Animation Theater to see Anna and Elsa up close.

They are daldalita like me.:)

My new friends.:)

Elsa said my earrings were beautiful, yeah coz they're Mom's.

These two are huggers.

I had to confess to them my real favorite is Olaf.:)

Back in PH, I kind of "disliked" Let It Go, Frozen's soundtrack because it was played on the radio, at malls, by people , anywhere all over,nonstop. Nasuya ako!!! I did not even bother to see the movie while everyone from adults to toddlers were crazy with it. When I came here in America, for some reason Olaf got me. So I finally gave in and watched the movie and there, I am a fan already. 
Quite a number of times, I was tagged Ice Queen like Elsa, with unseemingly cold and stoned- heart especially with the opposite sex. " The cold never bothered me anyway." I tell you, it does.

I am pleased to meet you Anna and Elsa. Until next time.

I gathered courage to try again the Guardians of Galaxy for a melodramatic reason. A lot of things is going on with my life, I wanted to vent and let it out, in an appropriate place. There I was during the ride, I screamed my lungs out to the point I cried. What a relief!

I hopped after at Disneyland and this Mickey Pumpkin greets guests at Main Street. Halloween vibe there is.

First time to see Mickey's PhilharMagic. It was cute.

I am on a financial diet so I brought a boiled egg.:)

Out of curiosity,I went to check the Star Wars area, Disneyland's newest attraction. Matter of fact is I did not see even a single movie of the former.:) I have zero knowledge about it, the characters, etc.

I like the backdrop though.

Pooh, I like you.

Minnie knows Mitzi needs hugs.

Even if it was kinda humid on this day out, I enjoyed the hours I was at Disneyland. I still do not agree it is the happiest place on earth. It however gave a gloomy Mitzi the sunshine she was longing. Sometimes, we really have to pause, pull the hand break and slowly, mindfully savor the simple blessings that stare at us.

Play. Ride. Scream.

Make a Cake, Don't Bake!

Let me share the trick to make a celebration more memorable, have plain cakes available on hand and personalize them as you wish. I have never baked a cake and I do not plan to do it in the future as Porto's, Red Ribbon and our very own Kong Raymund of Hilton are always within the vicinity.:)

This week, two occasions were held at work, I bought cakes and decorated them. Of course, it is Ate Reggie who gave me the idea, she is as always nice enough to do the letterings. All I had to do was lay the fruits and letters on top of  the pastries. VOILA!!!

People at work expressed their appreciation with my thoughtfulness. It is the "personal" design that got them. As if I did a Herculean task.LOL!!:)

Oh, well fine!! I was glad with my work. It received two thumbs up too from my mentor, Ate Reggie!!:)

Celebrate.Create. Decorate.

Nice To Meet You, Pumpkin Patch!!!

Have I mentioned before that I have yet to play the "tourist" character here in America, particularly in Southern California, SoCal to us?? Quick lookback,I worked right away on the second day of my arrival in May 2015. Jetlag, culture shock, adjustment of all sorts did not matter to my former employer, it was only on weekends that my family was able to bring me to theme parks, few places here and there. Anyway, the main real reason of my immigration to this land is TO WORK!! So I am not complaining, jus venting an ounce.:)

A few days ago, I ticked off on my list one of the things that I wanted and wished to see here... PUMPKIN PATCH!!! Yaaayyyyy!!!:)

Thank you for always having my back.

A six-footer sunflower!

Tied big face!!

Another memory to remember in my lifeline.

Work. Rest.  Unwind.