LOL with Love

My dearest Love,

How God works in magical ways is beyond comprehension. As this is the last day I will see you and be with you, He made us share a really really hearty laugh. We were just both giggling, you were cute and you simply let loose and enjoyed the blooper I discovered. I wanted to hug you, capture every second of that moment. It kinda broke the ice between us. You found it funny as well, despite your formal and professional demeanor, you just laughed out truly too.

"Calm down, Michelle." 
"It's the first time I see you shaking from laughing. You were all red."

And for the first time in forever, you shared your own funny mishap in ordering complex Xrays to a 95 year-old weak patient. You looked like  a young boy. Man, you can laugh and you have  sense of humor. 

The best thing at that minute- you were actually talking to me and it's just the two of us. Thank you for understanding my insanity. Thank you as much for making it easy for me during the rounds as I was all over the place. Putting on patients,assessing them and passing meds. Answering phone calls and staff inquiry.

Thank you my love. You even agreed to write on my behalf your orders and G, you got clean and clear penmanship. Thank you for not giving me the attitude of a diva. Maybe you saw how I was truly swamped with tasks.I wanted to give you my full attention but I can't. 

Love, I won't see you for a couple of months. I hope the next time we bump into each other, the both of us are happy and settled with partners who love us and care for us. I continue to wish, hope and pray for THE One, it is not you at this moment obviously. Somewhere somehow, he will come. And I wish the same thing for you.

I care for you. I pray that you may always find reasons to laugh out loud every now and then.

Goodbye, my love. Thank You God for giving me this gift of memory with him.

Laugh. Love.Live.

GOODBYES ARE GOOD

I am not saying goodbye to love and to you my Love. I simply want to live each day without a trace of bitterness.Love does not demand, it has to be given with both hands unclasped, with a heart willing to be alive amidst the possibility of aches, trials and rejections.

I humbly accept the reality it may not still be THE time right now.And he may not even be THE one yet. I continue to wish, pray with deep faith that God has His perfect plans for me sketched and sealed in a blueprint. 

Until then, I shall savor my solitude and value the people who love me.
Glad I am not lonely, although it would not hurt to have a hand to hold me when I am very stressed at work , to get a tight hug when I suddenly miss my past life with Mamang in Philippines. Or to have someone to watch Bucks vs Lakers live at Staples Center, with Lakers winning the game.

Love. Pray. Hope.