The Woman With The Sweetest Smile

I love you very much and I miss you.
Your smile that can brighten the darkest gloom.

Sunday Family Day

Dearest Mamang, tomorrow would have been your 82nd birthday on earth. I miss you every day. The pain and sadness of not having you around lingers and part of my living and breathing. I however know and accept that you are now ageless in heaven with the gift of eternal life.

Today to celebrate your beautiful life you shared with us, we went to mass at Sacred Heart Church in Foothill Blvd, Rancho Cucamonga and had lunch at China Republic. The dimsum-xiao long bao, chicken feet, seaweed rolls were great. Their peking duck was impressive. We had Baked shakes, refreshers and mini cupcakes for dessert. Who doesn't love sweet treats, right? You maybe Ma, you never had a sweet tooth. I think we got it from Papang.

I feel in my heart that you watch over us constantly. I know that you are the family's strongest and most staunch intercessor for all our needs and prayers.

 Your memories will remain forever. Your love is the greatest kind of all and I could't ask for more.
We love you Ma, so so much.

Happy birthday my darling.

Yes, I Am Into This

I abided my PCP's advice to attend this.It is a 6-week workshop that occurs every Thursday. We are a small group and a facilitator guides us as we go along. I was hesitant to push this but a tiny voice inside me tells me I have to so I went to the first session. It 's about "The Mind-Body Connection."The stress symptom cycle was thoroughly discussed and how everyone in the room could relate with the daily dose of stress life gives. What I have learned? That I can control my thoughts and behaviors.

Nothing is actually new to what was shared and taught. I simply need to develop the habit of relaxation techniques and learn how to breathe. Why do I freakin' hold my breath when I am in the shower, when I trim my nails, when I apply eyeliner?

For many days , I was thinking if I do already have an anxiety disorder. I studied the symptoms and realistically, I can still consider the degree of anxiety  I have as normal. I just had too much worry the past months but I am getting back into shape. I simply accepted there are circumstances that are beyond my control.

Now I am able to breathe with normal rate. I have less mood swings and I am alright within me. It is not perfectly fine, but nothin ain't, right?

I will keep on attending the remaining sessions. There is nothing to lose but everything to gain.

Written on the workbook is " This program is meant to provide education, not therapy. "

I will not be diagnosed with Anxiety or Depression. I hold no judgment on this matter but I think I have control on this. This workshop will help me and I welcome the idea.

Till the next sessions. Let me breathe fresh air first.:)

Breathe.Cry. Live.

My Current Inspirational Song

I have more time for television nowadays as I have no FB and Instagram anymore (may post on another blog the reasons why). I watched The Grammys and caught a singer with jetblack hair and has a resemblance to Demi Moore. She is Kacey Musgraves and she sang this song and I instantly liked it. As I pay $9.99 a month for my Apple iTunes, I immediately downloaded this singer's album Golden Hour. She won the Best New Female Country Singer, fyi.

RAINBOW

When it rains, it pours. But you didn't even notice.

It ain't rainin' anymore, it's hard to breathe when all we know is

The struggle of staying above the rising water line.

Well, the sky is finally open, the rain and wind stopped blowin'

But you're stuck out in the same old storm again.

You hold tight to your umbrella, darlin' I'm just tryin' to tell ya

That there's always been a rainbow hangin' over your head.

Let go of your umbrella,darlin' I'm just tryin' to tell ya

That there's always been a rainbow hangin' over your head.

Music. Inspire. Rainbow.